Addiction and Recovery, Blog, Diary entry

Jealousy – the gorgeous little whispers about what we really want.

Late last night I received a facebook message from a wonderful gal who I know through doing a Recovery 2.0 online course with Tommy Rosen three years ago. She's a bright-eyed, bushy-tailed, gorgeous, glowing woman who was both able to be vulnerable about her own pain while compassionate and supportive of everyone else's.  She was much… Continue reading Jealousy – the gorgeous little whispers about what we really want.

Addiction and Recovery, Diary entry

Developing the third “D” – Discipline

My mum's boyfriend is an incredible businessman who believes in the 3 Ds of success: Drive. Determination. Discipline. When it comes to my full recovery from bulimia in 2019, I have the drive and determination of a horny rhinoceros, but the discipline? The third D would appear to be sorely absent.  And not just when… Continue reading Developing the third “D” – Discipline

Addiction and Recovery, Diary entry

The Transformation Begins

2019 is the year of my metamorphosis - from hungry caterpillar to beautiful butterfly. I am 40 years old and for 24 years I have struggled with bulimia. When I was sixteen I was caught in crippling self loathing, major negative body image issues and overwhelming "not good enough" syndrome.  Being fat to me, was… Continue reading The Transformation Begins

Addiction and Recovery, Blog, Health

Disconnect to Reconnect.

Yesterday I went off the grid. After a weekend of worrying about “WTF am I doing?" I decided to allow myself to explore every option without the interruption of the connected world. I didn’t worry about all the things I “should” be doing. Instead I got out into nature, chatted to loved ones and just… Continue reading Disconnect to Reconnect.

Addiction and Recovery, Blog

Where’s that bloodie miracle damnit?

Arrrrrrrrggghhhhh!!  Today is one of those days when my monkey mind is screaming,"OH FOR FUCK'S SAKES!! Where's this bloodie miracle I've been promised?" I could write on this topic for hours, but I'll keep it short - mostly because I'm in a helluva grump. So here it is.... a quick vomit up of my thoughts on… Continue reading Where’s that bloodie miracle damnit?

Addiction and Recovery, Blog

Falling in love with food again.

I have just started training as assistant chef (aka apprentice/ Cheflette/ slave/ disciple) at the VegTable Private Dining Room in Rheenendal.  Lord only knows why owner and head chef, Brett Garvie, hired me, as I am a self-confessed novice with nothing more than a fervent desire to re-establish a loving relationship with food.  I am also an… Continue reading Falling in love with food again.