You're at that "I've even too much" tipping point. You feel like you've gone too far, and you want to press the "Fuck It" button and just let rip! Zoom out. This discomfort is temporary. Your body will digest, and the discomfort will pass. Zoom Out. Have you really eaten too much? Too much for… Continue reading Freaking Out? Zoom Out.
Have you ever wanted to “eat normally” but no matter how well you start your day, you always end up losing control around food and bingeing until you can barely move, only to then have to figure out how to undo all the damage you’ve just done?If so, you aren’t alone.In fact, many of the… Continue reading Want To End Out-Of-Control Eating? Here’s how…
If you could choose only ONE thing to focus on in the early days of bulimia recovery what would it be?Yes, abstinence from bingeing or purging is important. But focussing on those two things is akin to taking a pill for the pain - it deals with the symptoms, not the cause. There is ONE… Continue reading Forget Not Bingeing Or Purging…Focus On This Instead.
It's time to take down the second biggest obstacle to long lasting recovery from bulimia or binge eating: Fear of Failing (again!) "I'd be mortified if this was just another thing that didn't work" I hear this, or a version of this all the time. I also hear, "I'm a failed anorexic" If fear of… Continue reading You Haven’t Failed At Bulimia Recovery
When I was younger my nanny called me "Mafutha" (after an elephant famous for its girth) to the great delight and guffaws of her friends! I couldn't have been more than 3 years old and it's the first memory I have of feeling 'too fat'. There's no doubt that she loved me and didn't intend to… Continue reading You big fat elephant! Ha ha ha!
Late last night I received a facebook message from a wonderful gal who I know through doing a Recovery 2.0 online course with Tommy Rosen three years ago. She's a bright-eyed, bushy-tailed, gorgeous, glowing woman who was both able to be vulnerable about her own pain while compassionate and supportive of everyone else's. She was much… Continue reading Jealousy – the gorgeous little whispers about what we really want.
My mum's boyfriend is an incredible businessman who believes in the 3 Ds of success: Drive. Determination. Discipline. When it comes to my full recovery from bulimia in 2019, I have the drive and determination of a horny rhinoceros, but the discipline? The third D would appear to be sorely absent. And not just when… Continue reading Developing the third “D” – Discipline
We dream of becoming the butterfly that flutters deep within us. But what does it really mean to radically transform from a crazed caterpillar into a bold butterfly? Take fitness as an example: If I was completely unfit (which I am not, but if I was) and was to radically transform my fitness, then going… Continue reading What is “radical transformation” anyway?
2019 is the year of my metamorphosis - from hungry caterpillar to beautiful butterfly. I am 40 years old and for 24 years I have struggled with bulimia. When I was sixteen I was caught in crippling self loathing, major negative body image issues and overwhelming "not good enough" syndrome. Being fat to me, was… Continue reading The Transformation Begins